Sunday, February 1, 2015

new beginnings & roller coaster rides

"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago."
Ephesians 2:10

I love the fresh, new feelings of a new year. It's a fresh start, a time to really examine yourself and purpose to change the things that need to be changed. 

In a lot of ways, the end of 2014 was like a crazy roller coaster ride. We got bad news right and left and it seemed like we were spiraling on a never ending, loop de loop roller coaster.  

The start of 2015 was like the part of the roller coaster where it ends- the slowing down, calm, and your head finally stops spinning part.

A fresh start.

A few months ago, I updated you guys on everything happening in our family. Quite a bit has changed since then.  Workers have started cleaning up water damage and mold issues. The whole north side of our house is in containment with plastic reaching 12 ft from floor to ceiling. We currently have no kitchen or laundry room. Workers are in our house all day every day, fans and de humidifiers running non stop. It's slightly crazy. But, thankfully we have our barn a few hundred feet away to retreat to during the day. We are able to do school down there and come back up to the house at night to sleep. An interesting thing is that we've had to eat out every meal since they ripped out the kitchen, so about five days now. I have to say that I've never missed home cooking so much in my life! But, I'm just glad this whole process finally started. It's going to be 8 or so weeks until the house will be normal again.

Some of you might remember me telling you about our blind horse Rooster. I have such good news on him. After searching and searching for a place for him to go to, it seemed hopeless. We were so discouraged and upset because no place that we looked at had room for him. We were about to give up when our vet encouraged us to talk to Auburn University, in Auburn, Alabama, and ask if we could donate Rooster to their Large Animal Clinic for research. This was the last option. If Auburn didn't take him, then we had no other choice than to put him down. He was getting too dangerous for us to have here. But God was SO good throughout this. Auburn accepted him and we were able to trailer him there (about a 3 hour drive for us) last week. It is a beautiful place and I'm so very happy for him. He's going to be so well taken care of there. 

With those two major events going on in our lives, it really did feel like a never ending ride- the kind when all you want is to get off, but there is no way you can...you just have to endure it and hold on.  I think one of the biggest things that I learned in the past few months is that 1) God is good, all the time. That was extremely hard to believe, and I still don't understand why we went through everything we did. But, despite this, God is good. 2) God taught me endurance. That was huge for me. It was so hard to get up in the mornings, knowing I had a day full of overwhelming issues to confront wasn't encouraging. But I had to. I had to believe that God was with me and helping me through the day.

So, if you are going through a difficult "roller coaster" season in your life right now, I would encourage you to find rest in God's Word. You can take everything the hard way by not relying on Jesus in your problems, like I did. Believe me- that ride is like being on your roller coaster ride with no seatbelt- you are on the verge of falling out! But Jesus is that seatbelt. He is your safety, your rest. He is your constant, never changing Father who will always be there no matter what loop de loop you are on in your life. We have to make the choice to rest in His promises of love and faithfulness to us. We have to put on that seatbelt. His love and rest is offered right there in front of us. He is just waiting for us to strap in and hold on tight on this crazy, loop de loop roller coaster ride of life.