Saturday, June 28, 2014

only God knows how it all turns out...

Right now my family is going through a difficult time with my grandmother (my mom's mom).  Here's a little background...

My grandmother on my Dad's side died when I was very little.  Now, my grandmother on my Mom's side has full blown dementia.  She's always had mental issues, but never this bad.  This has been so hard on us.  When I think it's bad, I know my Mom and grandfather are hurting ten times more than I am.  This disease is so crazy in the way it progresses.  One day, she'll be fine, but the next, it's like she has no idea whats going on.

I didn't realize how bad it was until the beginning of this week when we went over to their house.  My grandfather asked me to stay with her while he picked some blueberries.  My grandmother did not want him to leave, and as I was trying to ease her into the living room, she kinda got upset with me. That's never ever happened before.  I sat there with tears in my eyes as she got mad, and I'm thinking what happened to my grandmother?

Later that day, she had a dr's appt, so I picked out some clothes for her and asked her to get dressed.  I had no idea, but she didn't have a clue on how to get dressed. Another thought ran through my mind...why is this happening?

I see pictures of girls having such a special relationship with their grandmother.  Either they are going out to lunch, or going shopping, or just spending time together.  Seeing stuff like that hurts pretty bad, to say the least.  It hurts to think that I will never have that kind of relationship.  Another thing that makes me hurt is when kids take advantage of their grandmother.  I know some kids that are so disrespectful to their grandmother.  Yet again, another thought runs through my mind... they do not realize how lucky they are, and how much God has blessed them.  

Through all of this, I'm trying to remember that God has a reason for this.  "Only God knows how it all turns out, and for those who belongs to Him, it turns out well."

Right now, my whole family (especially my grandfather and my mom) would really appreciate your prayers as we go through this uphill struggle.




  1. Dear Grace,
    I'm so sorry you are struggling with this. And for your family. I will certianly pray for you. It must be so hard, and I can understand. My grandmothers love me and I love them but one of my grandmothers is just starting to get around more after sitting for years in a house, and one has her strong opinions so sometimes I feel I have to pretend so I won't offend her( for my dad's sake) You are right that God has a reason for this, and He will sustain you. Keep praying ok?
    Love in Christ,
    p.s The pictures are lovely! Also, I've heard that horses sometimes seem to help people with dementia. Just an idea. I think we have someone at the therapeutic riding program I work at and the horses seem to help the person focus and remember.

  2. I'm so sorry to hear your Grandmother and you and your family are going through this. My family has dealt with this, but I was too little to remember it. I can't imagine how difficult it is, especially as her granddaughter. You are so positive though, and I know God will help you through as you keep the faith that no matter what, "for those who belong to him, it turns out well". Your grandmother and you and your family will be in my prayers!


  3. I'm so sorry! I hope things sort out soon. I know how you're feeling. My grandfather died on my dad's side died before I was born and I never knew my grandmother on that side because we live in Australia and she lived in England. About three years ago, she died and then a year ago, my grandmother on my mum's side died of a heart attack. I was never really really close to her, because we live a long way away, but it was heart breaking. Then my grandfather on mum's side died a few months ago. So I know just how your feeling, especially about the grandmother, granddaughter relationship.
    Sorry this comment is so long and you had to sit through so much history:P Just know that's I'm praying for you and your family!
    (Almost) Completely Mad