Saturday, June 28, 2014

only God knows how it all turns out...

Right now my family is going through a difficult time with my grandmother (my mom's mom).  Here's a little background...

My grandmother on my Dad's side died when I was very little.  Now, my grandmother on my Mom's side has full blown dementia.  She's always had mental issues, but never this bad.  This has been so hard on us.  When I think it's bad, I know my Mom and grandfather are hurting ten times more than I am.  This disease is so crazy in the way it progresses.  One day, she'll be fine, but the next, it's like she has no idea whats going on.

I didn't realize how bad it was until the beginning of this week when we went over to their house.  My grandfather asked me to stay with her while he picked some blueberries.  My grandmother did not want him to leave, and as I was trying to ease her into the living room, she kinda got upset with me. That's never ever happened before.  I sat there with tears in my eyes as she got mad, and I'm thinking what happened to my grandmother?

Later that day, she had a dr's appt, so I picked out some clothes for her and asked her to get dressed.  I had no idea, but she didn't have a clue on how to get dressed. Another thought ran through my mind...why is this happening?

I see pictures of girls having such a special relationship with their grandmother.  Either they are going out to lunch, or going shopping, or just spending time together.  Seeing stuff like that hurts pretty bad, to say the least.  It hurts to think that I will never have that kind of relationship.  Another thing that makes me hurt is when kids take advantage of their grandmother.  I know some kids that are so disrespectful to their grandmother.  Yet again, another thought runs through my mind... they do not realize how lucky they are, and how much God has blessed them.  

Through all of this, I'm trying to remember that God has a reason for this.  "Only God knows how it all turns out, and for those who belongs to Him, it turns out well."

Right now, my whole family (especially my grandfather and my mom) would really appreciate your prayers as we go through this uphill struggle.