Tuesday, November 25, 2014

a time to cry & a time to laugh...

Hi everyone!

I'm so sorry I haven't blogged in forever.  It's been a crazy last few weeks. As my grandfather says "When it rains, it pours."  It's definitely been pouring at the Mattox home.

First of, my family took our annual trip to Canada.  My Dad drove, as usual. His truck broke down 3 times and then he got a flat tire.
Then, when we came home after being gone two weeks, we noticed our floors buckling.  We have re-purposed pine wood floors in our house.  My Mom stepped on one of these boards and, to all of our surprise, water shot up!  Long story short, a pipe in our laundry room has been leaking for several months now.  They found mold in our laundry room closet.  They have to rip everything out 6 inches above the floor (keep in mind that because this was leaking for so long, water spread throughout our downstairs.) So that means, floors, cabinets, the built in bookcases, our stove, dishwasher, fridge, washing machine & dryer...all that has to come out.  On top of that, they cannot reuse our floors.  Since our floors were one of a kind, we have to get all new flooring on the downstairs floor, no matter if water spread there or not.  So, that's happening!!  Thankfully, they aren't starting demo til after Thanksgiving.
Then, even worse than this is about our horse, Rooster.  Many of you will remember that we just recently bought Rooster (in May of this year) and just got him moved to our house in late September.  Emma went to feed him one day, and noticed clouds in his eyes. We immediately got a vet to come over, and he confirmed that Rooster has Equine Recurrent Uveitis (ERU).  He is completely blind in his right eye, and partially in his left.  This is a condition that comes in attacks.  If the attacks are discovered and taken care of, it slows down the process of blindness.  But, Rooster's obviously was not taken care of, therefore he is almost totally blind.  I can't begin to tell you how devastated we are, especially my sister Emma.  Rooster is her best friend, and he is only 7 years old.  Currently, we are looking for a ranch specifically for blind horses (if you know of any, please let me know!).  We had two vets opinions, and both agree that Rooster is not safe for Emma to have, period.

So, that's what's been going on.  :0 It's been a lot, a whole lot.  I was beginning to feel kind of beaten up, just like my family was getting tossed around with all of the bad things happening (some I'm not even mentioning). Realization hit, and I felt so stressed when I realized I could do absolutely nothing to change the circumstances.  Our whole house is going to be ripped up- can't do nothing about it.  Rooster is blind- nope, I can't change that either.

That's been really difficult.  But like the verse above (ecclesiasties 3), there is a time for everything.  There is a purpose for everything. God has us in His hands, and I am grateful for that.

My Dad reminded me that this too shall pass.

I will leave you with a few recent pics.  I'll try to go into more detail about our Canada trip soon :)

Happy Thanksgiving!
we were able to have a fall party back in october with some friends :)

aunt retta and uncle bobby got to stop by too!

family christmas picture in canada, nov 2014

me and my babe (fraulein)

and last but not least, our sweet rooster.  this pic was taken a while back.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

You Are Perfectly Made! {New YouTube Video}

Hey guys!

I have made a YouTube channel and will be posting on it every week. (:  Check out my first video!


Wednesday, September 3, 2014

what I want in my future husband...

Hey guys!

So, today I'm kinda updating a post I did a few years ago.

  I just searched on Google "qualities in a future husband".  This is what came up:
make sure he doesn't tell you what you should weigh 
Uhh, does weight even matter?

 Okay, if I were to be pushing 400 lbs or something, I'd guess I would like my husband to be like"Babe....whats going on here???"

My list is a lot different than what most girls my age would look for.  I don't have a certain hair color or eye color that I want in a future husband ( though I am partial to blue eyes and brown hair...:P).  I have a list that;s about what's on the inside.  I know that this may seem super specific to some people. I'm not trying to look for a perfect guy, one who never messes up, and I sure hope my future husband isn't looking for a perfect girl, because I am definitely not.  I'm looking for someone who loves Jesus as much as I do and wants to spend the rest of his life with me.

Here's my list:

what I want in my future husband…
1.       a man who loves and follows Jesus- a God lover
2.       a man who does not have a bad temper.
3.       a man who has a good relationship with his parents.
4.       a man who loves me for me, not just for my outward appearance.
5.       a man who will draw me closer to Jesus.
6.       a man who is funny (:
7.       a man who is outgoing and confident.
8.       a man who is not afraid to admit when he’s wrong.
9.       a man who loves to travel.
10.   a man who does not try to change my convictions.
11.   a man who has the same beliefs.
12.   a man who is tenderhearted.
13.   a man who is understanding. 
14.   a man who is patient.
15.   a man who is strong, not physically, but spiritually.
16.   a man who connects with me, who understands me and my failures and accepts me.
17.   a man who loves children.
18.   a man who loves others.
19.   a man who isn't afraid to show affection. 
20. a man who is chasing after Jesus.

 Now these next few aren't required...but they would be absolutely wonderful (:
            1. a man who loves to be outdoors (to hunt, fish, hike, etc!)
            2. a man who can sing...because I definitely can't!
            3. a man who will dance with me!

Well, that's my list!  I pray for my husband every day- I have been for almost two years now.  I think that it is so important for us girls to pray for our future husbands, and vice versa.  You never know what they may be going through right now, and your prayers will be a blessing on them.  

(again, I'm going to recommend the book "Praying For Your Future Husband" by my forever favorite author Robin Jones Gunn.  It's a must read girls!)


Monday, August 25, 2014

a whirlwind...

...is exactly what summer (and pretty much all of 2014) feels like to me.  It's like I blinked when it was January 1st and when I opened my eyes, all of a sudden it is the end of summer!

     I'm going to try and backtrack to tell you guys what I did this summer.  It's definitely been busy, to say the least.

In June:

I had a slow month for June, which was quite nice!  We finished up school, and I started to help one of my friend's with her dog washing business.  It was so fun!  I was able to connect with new friends, and also to see old friends that I haven't seen in a while.

me and my forever friend Blaine (who lives 6 hours from me) gave eachother blindfolded makeovers when she came down to visit (:

In July:
whew, okay- this was a busy month.  First, I was apart of a 4th of July parade in my hometown on the library float.  We had tons of fun throwing beads and celebrating our nation's independence!  About a week after that, I had the AMAZING opportunity to go with my friend Blaine, her older sister Reide, and Reide's friend Maddie...white water rafting!!  We went on the Ocoee River in Tennessee.  I had an absolutely fantastic time.  We also went hiking and got to tour The University of the South (aka Sewanee).  It was a beautiful school.  Later that month, I saved a puppy on the side of the road when I was going to meet some friends for coffee.  I absolutely COULD NOT leave this baby there.  But, if you know my family, you know we cannot take another dog (we actually have ahem... nine at the moment).  God had it worked out so perfectly though!  A friend of mine was looking for a dog, and Charlie found a wonderful home.  After this, my sister Mary bought her first car!  It is a 2006 used Toyota 4Runner.  She looovveees it.  To end the month, I had a lemonade stand with my friend Blaine (:
us girls the day before white water rafting- l-r me, blaine, maddie & reide

so. much. fun


little charlie!

mary and her car!

August has definitely been the busiest month of the summer.  The 5th of August was my 16th birthday (:  My parents surprised me with a trip to San Francisco, CA!  I had THE BEST TIME EVER.  This trip was just me and my Mom, which made it extra special.  We left on the 4th of August and came back on the 9th.  I had no idea where we were going until we got to our connection in Houston.  We did everything in San Francisco- walked the Golden Gate Bridge, did lots of hiking at Lands End and Crissy Field, went to Lombard St, visited two libraries (of course), drove to see the Redwood Trees on the Avenue of Giants, went to Pier 39 (Fisherman's Wharf) and saw all of the precious sea lions, drove down the coast of California for three hours, and made tons of memories.  It is, by far, the most fantastic trip I've ever taken.  I had so much fun with my Mom!
Now, at the end of August, I just have a few minor life achievements...lol such as getting my driver's license (!!!!!!) and starting my Junior year of highschool today.  I did get to have a tea party as a late celebration for my birthday from my friends Blaine, Reide, and Maddie.  We had such a cute little get together (:


Golden Gate Bridge at Crissy Field

Eno ing at Land's End (: 

Land's End

Celebrating my birthday at an Italian restaurant (: 

Redwood Trees!!!

Driving down the Pacific

My Christy and Todd lovers will understand how important this was- I wore my Forever bracelet to the beach and stood with my toes in the sand.  The books were so real to me as the waves splashed through my toes.  I turn around, and TWO VW VANS DRIVE BY!!!!  totally passed out.

the full house house!

Princess Diaries' House!

we had a picnic with the Painted Ladies (:

Seward Street Slides- SO MUCH FUN!

windy day!

an accidental wrong turn led us to Hawk's Eye View!

Pier 39 Sea Lions!

on the way home ):  I did not want to leave!

The next week we celebrated my Dad's birthday by going fishing in our amazing Gulf of Mexico!


FREE Starbucks Venti Mocha Frappuchino for my birthday (:

my amazing friend Melissa had her 19th birthday on the 23rd!  Love this girl so much!

after the tea party with blaine (:

And most recently (as of today)...

love y'all!

Saturday, June 28, 2014

only God knows how it all turns out...

Right now my family is going through a difficult time with my grandmother (my mom's mom).  Here's a little background...

My grandmother on my Dad's side died when I was very little.  Now, my grandmother on my Mom's side has full blown dementia.  She's always had mental issues, but never this bad.  This has been so hard on us.  When I think it's bad, I know my Mom and grandfather are hurting ten times more than I am.  This disease is so crazy in the way it progresses.  One day, she'll be fine, but the next, it's like she has no idea whats going on.

I didn't realize how bad it was until the beginning of this week when we went over to their house.  My grandfather asked me to stay with her while he picked some blueberries.  My grandmother did not want him to leave, and as I was trying to ease her into the living room, she kinda got upset with me. That's never ever happened before.  I sat there with tears in my eyes as she got mad, and I'm thinking what happened to my grandmother?

Later that day, she had a dr's appt, so I picked out some clothes for her and asked her to get dressed.  I had no idea, but she didn't have a clue on how to get dressed. Another thought ran through my mind...why is this happening?

I see pictures of girls having such a special relationship with their grandmother.  Either they are going out to lunch, or going shopping, or just spending time together.  Seeing stuff like that hurts pretty bad, to say the least.  It hurts to think that I will never have that kind of relationship.  Another thing that makes me hurt is when kids take advantage of their grandmother.  I know some kids that are so disrespectful to their grandmother.  Yet again, another thought runs through my mind... they do not realize how lucky they are, and how much God has blessed them.  

Through all of this, I'm trying to remember that God has a reason for this.  "Only God knows how it all turns out, and for those who belongs to Him, it turns out well."

Right now, my whole family (especially my grandfather and my mom) would really appreciate your prayers as we go through this uphill struggle.



Thursday, May 22, 2014

Our Boy Rooster

We had a little photoshoot with our horse, Rooster.  He is literally the sweetest and most gentle thing I've ever seen.  He's only 6, but so calm and loving.  I hope y'all enjoy the pictures (: